“Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.” –Hebrews 10:22
If you have children, especially young ones, you are familiar with the movie Frozen. The most popular song from this movie can be recited by many, many moms, dads, and kids. Colin’s favorite version is Let It Go (Single Version) by Demi Lovato. He always asks for the Frozen song that says “life I’ve chosen.” Bear with me now. I’ve heard this song MANY times, and have had this little feeling. Well today, some of the words just struck my heart and I think we (especially us moms) can all relate to the lyrics. For the next few minutes as you read this, try to take the Frozen scene where they play this song out of your head. And stay with me. 🙂
“A kingdom of isolation, and it looks like I’m the queen. The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside. I couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried.”
I have experienced so many moments where I felt completely isolated. No one understands what I am going through. No one else has experienced this. You are failing! For me, I am particularly susceptible to feelings of isolation when I am in the midst of a storm, a small storm or a category 5 hurricane. We try to go it alone. We try to fix the problem, whether because we are too embarrassed to share our problem, we feel ashamed by it, or we just flat out don’t believe anyone can help us. So we try and try to hold it inside. Maybe you have mastered this, but I have not. Eventually, it comes out and when it does, it’s ugly. But guess what? You are never alone. Even if you don’t know Christ, or believe in him, or have a very intimate relationship with him…He is always there for you. He loves you. You cannot hide anything from Him.
“Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were
written in your book
before one of them came to be ” — Psalm 139:23-24
He knows us, He loves us. During my Before Amen study, I journaled about how I fail when I try to do things on my own. I wrote, “life sails smoother with God navigating.”
“Don’t let them in, don’t let them see. Be the good girl you always have to be. Conceal, don’t feel. Don’t let them know.”
Social media can be so disastrous for our spirits. I know, I say this knowing I am going to share this blog…I do feel like we can use social media for good, too. But how many times have I scrolled through Facebook seeing everyone post about their perfect lives while Satan whispers in my ear “they are better than you. Look, they keep it together. Their kids always listen. They never yell. They have time to spend with their spouse. They have their priorities right.” And by the time I’m done scrolling, I feel terrible about myself. I’m am convinced, however, that these friends conceal what is really happening. They don’t share the bad parts of their lives, only the good. They don’t want anyone to know. But Jesus knows. God knows. So log off Facebook. Unfollow friends’ feeds that maybe annoy you. Follow Godly media, such as Proverbs 31 or Love God Greatly. Fill your feed with encouraging words fed by God. Pray for the people that only post the positive…I guarantee there is something in their life they conceal and they need your prayers. It can be a simple, “Jesus, please help them with whatever they may have going on in their life.” He knows.
“Do not let my heart be drawn to what is evil
so that I take part in wicked deeds
along with those who are evildoers;
do not let me eat their delicacies.” –Psalm 141:3-4
“Let it go, let it go, can’t hold it back anymore. Let it go, let it go, turn my back and slam the door.”
What if we let it go. Let go whatever you feel you need to conceal or hide. Give it to Jesus. Confide in a friend. Pray for Jesus to help you through it, ask your friend to pray with you…for you.
“Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” –1 Peter 5:7 (my emphasis)
“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” –James 1:5-6 (my emphasis)
These are two of my favorite Scripture verses on this topic, but you can find so many similar to it. Over and over, we are reminded of God’s love for us. Nothing we do can take that away. NOTHING. So turn to Him. He will help you, if you turn to Him and believe.
“It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small, and the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all.”
Giving your problem, issue, fear to Jesus will bring you peace. Your problem is not small, but once you turn it over to Him and feel the peace only He can provide, you will be able to overcome it.
“Peace I leave you, My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” –John 14:27
“I sought the Lord, and He answered me;
He delivered me from all my fears.” –Psalm 34:4
In Before Amen, there is a chapter on healing. Max Lucado points out that some healing is instantaneous, while other healing is gradual. Stay strong if you have given your issue to God and don’t feel like He has answered you or is listening. He is. He is there. He hears you. He has HIS timing, not yours. Keep giving it up to Him and asking for His guidance.
“Up here in the cold thin air, I finally can breathe. I know I left a life behind, but I’m too relieved to grieve!”
This is the part of the song that I belt out in the car with my kids, the line that left me tingling when I really listened to it and felt God speak to me. THIS is how I feel. I always believed I was a Christian because I believed in God. Nearly a year ago, however, my life truly changed in the middle of the biggest hurricane of my life. Though I still stumble and have setbacks, I know what it’s like to finally breathe. I did leave a life behind. I left a life behind where I did not put my full confidence and heart into Jesus. I did not turn to God, though I believed in him. I did not have a relationship with Him, I did not hear Him speak to me, and I wondered if He was really there. Since March 26, 2014 I have never doubted His existence or His will for my life. Caitlin Grace is MY living proof that God exists and that HE knows what’s best for me, not myself. I know I still have a long way to go, but the joy that fills me now leaves me wanting more. I want more of God. I want more of Jesus. I need Him in my life. I’m too relieved to grieve at my old life. I praise God for MY revelation that came in the form of sweet little Caitlin.
“Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” –Psalm 62:1-2
“You are my strength, I sing praise to you;
you, God, are my fortress,
my God on whom I can rely.” –Psalm 59:17
“Standing, frozen, in the life I’ve chosen. You won’t find me, the past is all behind me. Buried in the snow.”
This is Colin’s favorite part of the song. So here I stand, in the life I’ve chosen. It’s a choice. You choose whether you believe in Jesus Christ. You choose whether or not to believe He is your Savior, your way to eternal life. God gave His only son, SACRIFICED, his only son, for us. Because He loves us. I remember talking with my grandmother last summer when she was in town helping me while I was on bed rest. We were in the car, talking about Jesus’ death. With tears in her eyes, she talked about how God tore the veil – because He loved His son so much, and it brought Him so much pain to see Jesus suffer. Can you imagine doing that? I can’t. The only way God could have witnessed the horrific suffering of His only son is because of the love He feels for us. That He sent His son to die for our sins, so that we can have eternal life through Jesus Christ. You won’t find me in my past. I lived that life, and I’ve lived this life…and I choose life with Jesus. I still have struggles, I still have demons to fight. With Jesus by my side, I can do anything.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” –Philippians 4:13
Many blessings to you all!