Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. -1 Corinthians 10:31
So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.
-1 Corinthians 15:58
Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up. -Proverbs 12:25
Yesterday, I asked for prayers. I have just really had a hard couple of weeks. It’s not something that I can explain easily. I have been praying, and it’s helping but I still feel this weight of darkness on me. So I reached out and asked for prayers on a Facebook page a dear friend created specifically for intercessory prayer. Another friend sent me a text with a couple pictures. One of the quotes said, “At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.” It was on my mind all day, and then last night I really felt God speaking to me through it.
When I prepared for this move, I focused on what had to get done. Cleaning the house to prepare for showings, keeping my kids happy and entertained during the transition period, hanging out with my friends to keep a level of sanity… I didn’t think about or prepare for what would happen after the move. I kept myself in some kind of weird denial, and refused to think about it. I never expected the move to be this difficult for me. I’m an introvert, and I knew I’d be alone a lot since we didn’t know anyone. I just never prepared myself for how to handle it.
Back in West Virginia, I stayed busy. I prepped for the church preschool classes every week. I went to read to my son’s class every Tuesday. I led a Bible study. I attended Storytime at the local library every Wednesday. I volunteered in my oldest daughter’s class. I usually met up with friends for breakfast, lunch, or shopping at least once a week. After school, we had lots of playdates – both scheduled and spontaneous. I had days where I just wanted to stay home and do nothing, which makes me laugh now. I felt needed. I felt appreciated. I felt important.
And then we moved. It took me a few weeks to get my background check so that I’d be able to volunteer in the school. However, I can’t take Caitlin with me to any activities they do and since we moved away from family, I don’t have anyone to watch her. So, I haven’t been in their classrooms. We attended Storytime once. There were about 300 kids (totally kidding, but it seemed like it) and my youngest didn’t care for it. I’ve gone to a Bible study here a few times, and I like it…but it also makes me miss the ladies from the groups I participated in at RRC. I’ve met a few neighbors who are incredibly sweet, and another lady from the church we’ve been attending. And everyone is SO nice…but it makes me miss my friends a lot.
I know it takes time. I know God is teaching me through this and I am learning some important lessons. I’m continuing to pray and read Scripture. I am enjoying the time I spend with the people here. And I am waiting for things to turn around and this to feel like home. I need to take the advice from the quote my friend sent me and embrace my new normal. I am so thankful for the amazing community that continues to support me and pray for me. In hard times, we need to rely on God but I think we should also look to our community for encouragement. Another friend sent me a devotion, and in it the author instructs us to take things minute by minute, day by day. So today, minute by minute I am getting through the day and looking forward to what my new normal day brings.