The past few months, I’ve been retreating inward. I imagine myself to be a turtle, pulling into the safety of my shell. The big move from our small, community filled life in WV to the much bigger, scarier (to an introvert!), full of unknowns life just outside Columbus, OH has thrown me off track. Paralyzed me at times. Continually caused me to question God’s plan. Why? I felt like I was blossoming spiritually there – leading a women’s group, creating deep, faith-centered friendships… And now, I’m starting over God. Why?
While journaling and praying, God began to reassure me. Reveal what’s REALLY been going on.
I’ve been living under a shell. A shell of Christianity, but where the enemy has been able to creep in.
I fully believe the Word of God. I believe all of Scripture is God-breathed. I know God has a plan and a purpose for all things in my life. I know Jesus loves me so much, he gave his life for my sins – past, present, and future – on the cross.
But I allowed myself to hear the enemy when he whispered to my vulnerability. He called into question God’s purpose for me. He told me I wasn’t good enough. He suggested life here won’t be like life in WV – and made me believe this to be a bad thing. So I retreated. I stopped writing, despite the numerous times God has shown me His love and grace. I stopped putting time in Scripture as a priority, despite God calling me to be still and learn. In my shell, I know God loves me. I know I have been saved by the grace of God through Jesus. And I let the enemy tell me that’s enough.
God has a purpose for me. For you. I’ve been praying for Him to show me what He wants me to do, as long as I stay in the safety of my shell. A few times, I’ve poked my head out to look around. When God urged me to move, I retreated.
Thankfully, God is persistently pursuing me.
Thankfully, His power is made perfect in my weakness.
Thankfully, darkness will never overcome the Light.
The Good News, my sweet friend, is the same is true for you. Your circumstances for retreating to your shell may differ. God wants to use you to glorify His kingdom! He created you for a specific purpose!
It’s scary being called to move when we like our shell of Christianity. Change is uncertain, uncomfortable. Likely, what God calls us to do will be tough. Out of our comfort zone.
The reward though…it’s so worth it.
So today, I’m going to take a deep breath and come out of my shell. I’m going to use my head to listen for God’s instruction. I’m going to use my hands and feet to do the work. The enemy can’t hold me back from glorifying God.
Won’t you join me?