“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you will call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.” Oceans, Hillsong
All my life, I have connected with music. I used to listen exclusively to country music because I loved the stories. Certain songs embedded in my memory instantly take me back in time. Listening to certain songs help me when I run or workout.
I began listening to Christian music when my oldest daughter was around 5, after I heard her singing along to a not-so-appropriate song. Now, my kids have their favorite songs on the Christian station. I’ve even noticed my son, who usually is “bored” in the car, has started listening to the songs and requesting I turn up the volume when his favorites come on.
Songs have also played a role through some tough situations in my life. The song “Oceans” in particular has been on my heart lately, so I wanted to share about it. I love all the lyrics. I first heard this song at River Ridge when the worship band played it before service. I liked it, but didn’t connect with it at that time. During my pregnancy with Caitlin, so many wonderful people reached out to me with Scripture. One sweet friend, Ashley, told me to listen to the song “Oceans” by Hillsong. I did, and completely connected with it. This song, when I hear it, takes me back to the first time I had to completely put my trust in God. I had to trust His plan.
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters.
Your sovereign hand
will be my guide.
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t stop now.
So I will call upon your name
and keep my eyes above the waves
when oceans rise
My soul will rest in your embrace
for I am yours and You are mine.”
God saw me through that difficult time and blessed my family with a beautiful, healthy baby girl. My faith strengthened in that time, in the presence of my Savior.
When we moved to Ohio, we had some crazy weeks before we found a church to attend. We were going to “church shop,” and started with a church we had heard about called Lifepoint. I’ll never forget attending our first service. I desperately missed River Ridge and missed being in church, worshipping. This worship band is different than RRC, and they opened the set with some different songs I didn’t really know. I felt out of place and then heard the opening chords to Oceans. I remember singing along with tears trickling down my face. I knew we were honoring God’s plan by moving, but I felt abandoned because I was having such a hard time with it. I felt God’s presence on that day, singing that song. It was His reminder to me that He’s never failed me, and He won’t stop now.
I had some rough months with God. I wanted – and still do, really – to understand why we are here. What is His plan? Why did friendships deepen, only for me to move away? Why am I supposed to be in Ohio? How does that play into the big plan God has for me? Here’s the wonderful thing about God. He can take our questions. He can handle our doubt. He will stand by us when we tell Him we are angry and we don’t understand. And He will embrace us as we walk through the storm. My faith IS made stronger in the presence of my Savior, and during really difficult times I feel His presence. I walked where He’s called me, and I trust He is working out something more beautiful than I could ever imagine. Maybe I’ve had enough hard times for now, or maybe more hard times are lurking right around the corner. No matter what, my faith is deepening every day that I walk with Him. Sun or storm, He is with me. If I ever forget that, or doubt it, this is a song I can turn on and be reminded of His faithfulness.