Today, I had to have a cavity filled. Ugh. I would rather have blood drawn than go to the dentist for a cleaning, let alone having my teeth drilled. If you know me, that says a LOT about my feelings for dentistry because I am known to pass out during blood draws. Before Christmas, I went to the dentist to have four cavities filled. Apparently, 35 is a bad year for me and my teeth . . . I have never had a cavity requiring drilling before! Unfortunately, they were not able to numb my lower jaw enough for me to get those fillings. Instead, I left the dentist’s office in tears because my jaw hurt so bad and the experience was awful for me. Now, I want to be clear – my dentist was very nice, understanding, and accommodating. The issue was me.
I started praying about this visit a few days ago. I asked others to pray for me. I wrestled with the simple fact that a cavity filling is so minor. I mean, really. I know people battling cancer, job loss, addiction, uncertainty . . . and here I am asking for people to pray for me because I’m a total baby when it comes to going to the dentist. God filled me with peace as I walked into the dentist’s office today. A verse I had come across a few days ago kept coming to me, and eventually I just started repeating it in my head:
“Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5
I repeated this when they started drilling and I felt it. I repeated it while they used another method to further numb me. I repeated it while they drilled a second time. I kept putting my trust in Jesus to see me through this, no matter how minor it seems. And you know what? He was there with me. He saw me through.
I am guilty of not giving things to God because they seem so minor. Even if it’s a situation that affects me greatly, I find myself comparing my situation to all of the other things going on in the world. I’ll convince myself I can handle it. God doesn’t need to be bothered with something so petty. The last thing I want to do is pull God’s attention away from something major.
It’s such a human way of thinking.
I feel torn when all three of my kids need my attention. I struggle to meet each of their needs in times when their needs overlap. Short of having a clone, or two, this is a struggle – a human struggle – I will continue to face the rest of my life!
God is God. He is BIGGER than anything my human mind can comprehend.
God can be with me while I panic in the dentist’s chair. At the same time, He can be with every single one of His children. I can’t comprehend it, but I know it’s true.
I am so grateful for a God who cares about the small stuff just as He does the big stuff. If we trust Him enough to give Him all our worries, cares, concerns and hurts, He will see us through. Every single time. He will never leave us; He will never forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5)