I’m training for a 10K. My first goal is a 5K, which I am registered to run with a friend on 6/24. I dislike running.
My husband and his friend thought it would be fun to do a 10K together, and so decided to throw my friend and me in the mix. Fun times will be had by all, I’m sure, as they may have to carry me across the finish line. Six-point-two miles seems impossible to me. I get bored. I find myself checking my phone to see how much time is left of a 5 minute running segment! Tonight, I just kept thinking how uncomfortable running is for me. My legs still ache during the run segments, then I get side stitches when I walk. In all honesty, though, as uncomfortable as it can be….it is getting easier with training.
My mind is consumed lately with the upcoming conference I am attending, and I also thought about how similar this journey is to my 10K training. It’s uncomfortable. While I love writing, the stuff I will need to do at this conference is so far out of my comfort zone.
- I will have to talk to strangers. I learned at a young age not to talk to strangers, and I still follow this rule. I never feel as socially awkward as I do trying to make small talk with people I don’t know. And not only will I have to talk to strangers, I need to form friendships!! These women will be my ministry peers.
- I will have to promote myself. You all, honestly. I struggle daily to be confident in my writing as it is…and now I have to not only convince myself I can do this, I need to convince strangers!
- I will be away from my daughter when she wakes up on her birthday. I know this seems silly, but it’s the very thing that has kept me from pursuing this conference the past two years. She will not remember that I am not there. She won’t even know it’s her birthday. But this is a small step forward in obedience by putting God first.
It would be much more comfortable to be disobedient. I could save a lot of money, a lot of awkwardness, a lot of feeling on display, and a lot of guilt by being disobedient. Disobedience is comfortable.
God designed it that way. If obedience were comfortable, would I need Him? I’d likely become arrogant and take all the credit myself. Instead, I need God to get me through this. I need God to open the right doors, to put the right words on my tongue, to being the right people in my path. I need God to strengthen me to put myself aside and to keep the focus on Him and this wonderful opportunity with which He has blessed me. Lord, I need You!
What about you? When was the last time you felt God call you to do something, and your first reaction was “Perfect!! This is exactly what I wanted to do!” I mean, maybe I’m the strange one but I think if obedience wasn’t so uncomfortable, this world would be a much better place. Instead, we have a lot of Christians staying in their comfort zones and not pushing themselves for the good of God’s Kingdom.
Disobedience is comfortable. Let’s take a step toward uncomfortable.