My oldest daughter and I have different views of what constitutes a clean room. I am constantly on her about the state of it, until I finally give in and just clean it. This usually takes me an entire day, and I definitely let her know it.
My kids don’t enjoy picking up the playroom. I get on them about it, and it’s nice when they listen. When they don’t, I let them know. I’ll clean it while grumbling about how I don’t play with the toys, yet I have to clean them up.
My youngest is too young to get much for herself, and is very demanding first thing in the morning. She demands chocolate milk, the “softy” pillow and the “softy” blanket, right after I sit down beside her to wake myself up. I become easily frustrated.
Maybe you can relate? Motherhood is awesome. I truly wouldn’t trade it for all the time in the world. But, it’s also tiring. The little people in our lives are demanding. They need lots of attention. Some days, I just don’t have the patience. This morning, God kind of slapped me across the face. I was reading my devotional for the morning and spent time in Philippians 2. When I came across the following verses, I knew I was receiving an important message:
Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Do all things without grumbling or disputing. (V3, 14)
Whoops. Missed the ball on this one. I can be quite selfish. I like quiet time for myself, not to do Bible study (although I do enjoy this) but to just watch TV or read. Without someone needing something. And yes, I agree we all need this from time to time. But my heart when I am serving my family has not been in the right place. I’ve been grumbly. I’ve been disputing. Complaining. Pointing out what I’ve done to receive a thank you.
This isn’t the point. As a mom, God has entrusted His precious children to me. He has blessed me with a husband. These are gifts, and I am neglectful when I have an impure heart. I take it for granted. My job as a mom and a wife is to point my family to Christ, and my actions lately haven’t done that. Yes, my children should do chores and help out. That isn’t what this post is about. It’s about my heart when I serve.
Thank You, Lord, for the reminder. As hectic as the school year can be, summer can be rough too. New routines, more time with our kids and our kids with each other (hello, fighting!). Let’s remember to continue to shine Christ’s love when we serve our families. It’s a goal of mine this summer, starting today.