My stomach bounced around all morning long. The anticipation of this long-awaited event caused a mixture of eager butterflies, anxiety, and a little queasiness. Leaving my house and boarding the plane were small victories, but I felt increasingly unsettled with each passing minute.
Prayer proved to be the best weapon in my arsenal. Isn’t it always? As I unloaded my fears and doubts to God, I watched out the small plane window. Suddenly, the clouds distracted me from my one-way conversation with the Lord.
As a child, I remember watching the clouds pass with my mom. We would share the silly pictures we saw and follow our favorites as they morphed into different formations. It is a pastime I shared with my oldest daughter. We would lay flat on our backs and laugh as we discussed the various animals, shapes, and people our minds created in the puffy white clouds.
In the distance, I observed a lion-shaped cloud. Instantly, a verse came to mind: the devil prowls around like a lion, looking for someone to devour (1 Peter 5:8). Don’t I know it, I chastised myself. The enemy clocked a lot of overtime working on me as I prepared for the conference. Spiritual attacks flew at me from all directions. I battled doubt, uncertainty, anxiety, fear, and exhaustion. Even though I knew the thoughts filling my head came from the enemy, they sounded full of truth and spun me up, down, and all around.
As clouds do, the gentle flow of air led to a transformation. The next cloud resembled a turtle, causing a big smile to break out on my previously worried face. My oldest daughter loves sea turtles.
The turtle contorted into an eagle. Again, a popular Scripture came to mind: But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not grow faint (Isaiah 40:31).
Lion to eagle. Fear to faith. Attack to freedom.
Freedom because of my faith in Jesus Christ. The enemy can – and will – attack me, but he will never win. The battle is over. I am victorious through Christ alone. I am a daughter of Christ. He broke my chains the day I declared Him my Savior. I journaled the following that day on the plane: “I will walk into the unknowns of this weekend with excitement and confidence. God knows the result, and I will trust in His plan. I will shake off the lion. I will embrace the freedom offered that I sometimes forget is mine.”
As I write this post, I realize why God has put it on my heart. I needed to remember the message He gave me three weeks ago because the enemy is still attacking. I am allowing him to distract me from the one thing God is telling me to do: write the proposal.
Maybe you are in this place? God has opened a door, but you allow fear to paralyze you from stepping forward. You find other tasks to occupy your time, all the while worrying about the one thing God wants you to do. Will you walk across the threshold with me? Let us step forward with confidence. We will trust in the Lord, and we will soar high on wings like eagles. We won’t grow faint or weary when we have our eyes fixed Above.