Darkness, tears, doubts, fears.
This sums up the past week perfectly. I finished a first round edit on a sample chapter this past Monday. It was tough, but I got through it. I’m blessed to have a sweet new friend taking me under her wing and helping me prepare my book proposal. By Monday night, darkness set in. Doubt surrounded me. Tears streamed from my face. Fear overwhelmed me to the point of wanting to simply quit.
You know what’s easy? Watching Netflix.
You know what’s hard? Walking in obedience to something you feel God put on your heart.
To make it worse, the enemy pounced. Friends, the enemy knocked me straight down and sat on my chest for days. I let him. Wallowing in self doubt is easy. Giving in to the tears and feeling sorry for myself is easier than fighting for what I know to be true.
Slowly, with the encouragement of some dear friends, I began to gain my strength. I remembered this is not about me, but about glorifying Him. Giving up is simply not an option.
I know I’m not alone. Maybe your struggle looks different than mine, but we all have our spiritual battles. We have times where the darkness starts to settle in, along with exhaustion, and we simply sit. We give in to self doubt. We give in to fear. We give in to lies.
If this is where you are, may I encourage you?
You are never alone.
You are loved.
You are worth the fight.
It’s not easy, but stand back up. Brush off the dust. Lift your eyes and your arms in praise to the One who cares so deeply for you, He will never leave. I’m praying for us.
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