When You Get A No From God

Can I be incredibly honest tonight?

Getting a “no” from God stinks.

My family prayed and prayed for a yes. I don’t mean once a day. I don’t mean every now and then. I mean we consistently and constantly prayed. I prayed for this *maybe* more than I have for anything. With each prayer, I surrendered: not my will, Lord, but Your will be done.

Well, God’s will and my desire didn’t match.

And it stinks.

I️ have cried. I have struggled with Him. I leaned on a couple sweet friends, one of whom gave me permission to be angry. Honestly? It really helped to hear that.

Bottom line is, I know if God closed the door, it wasn’t for us. I get it. But, that doesn’t make it sting any less. It feels like a rejection, and rejection is not easy. I believed with all my heart we’d get a yes.

So here I find myself, angry and confused. I don’t get it. What did I do wrong? How could I have prayed differently to get a yes?

In the quiet, He whispers to me. I’ve got this. My ways are better. I understand your tears, and I am bottling them up. This experience will not be wasted. Trust, sweet child.<<
raised Him, through tears, for the closed door. I praised Him for not allowing us to go down a path that He didn't intend for us to walk. He knows my heart, the heart of my family, and I am choosing to trust Him.

It’s a choice with each and every prayer answered with a no, or not now. Choose trust, or choose to walk away.

I am holding firm. It’s not always easy. I may continue to shed some tears. I might have to force myself to open my Bible and pray. But I will not give up.

Blessings,

Jennifer 💕

2 thoughts on “When You Get A No From God

  1. tricia says:

    This was just what I needed to read today. I’m struggling with the no… and the question of why not? It’s easy for me to know that God has something else in store, but hard for me to believe and accept that it could be better! Thank you for sharing your heart with us!

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