“Look, I have placed before you an open door that no one can close . . .” (Revelation 3:8)
I attended She Speaks in July 2017 and met with two publishers. Writing a book has been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember, and this opportunity was one I could not pass up. Anxiety ran high before my first appointment and I remember standing outside praying for God to close the door if this was not His intended path for me.
My first appointment relieved all my fears of talking with a publisher. We had a real conversation and she offered some advice, and invited me to submit a book proposal when I felt good about it. I knew this was an avenue God wanted me to pursue because of the nature of my prayer.
It took me quite a few months to work on the proposal, have editing help from a dear writing friend, and submit it. Almost immediately, she responded with a no. It was the kindest no I have ever received! In fact, I have plans to print it out and frame it on my writing desk as an encouragement.
Despite the kind words of the editor, I began questioning why God would open the door for me to submit a proposal only to receive a rejection. God, He is so, so good. A few weeks later, we found out we’d be moving to another state. I clearly recognized God’s hand in it all: He wasn’t telling me no forever, but no for now. My family needed my attention as we transitioned through the moving process for the second time in two years.
The door God did open to me at that conference has continued to bless me. He opened a networking door that allows me to connect with writer friends for encouragement, support, and occasional complaints. (It’s no easy road, friends!) He continues to impress on my heart this is simply not my time.
I’ve tried to control the outcome, which hasn’t worked. So now, I am sitting back. I’m standing at the threshold of this open door – the door I know God opened and no person can shut – waiting for God to beckon me to cross into the next room.
Thank you, Lord, for open – and shut – doors.
In pursuit of Him,
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